So as my friends know, but you the reader doesn't, He has moved on. That's right, not only do I have to deal with a divorce, but I have to deal with the fact that he has moved on with another girl.
She is a childhood friend, someone who when they were younger, he had a crush on but she was too mature being with the older guys. Now she has noticed him.
He says they are in love... whatever.
I have to sit and watch as he goes on to visit her after coming home from work. How is one supposed to deal with that? Some days are easier than others. I'm happy that he's happy, but I am also so goddamn humiliated and angry at the way he was able to move on so fast and even seems to flaunt the new girl.
The papers haven't even been filed!
So here I am sitting at home, writing in this blog, it's about 9:40pm and he just left to go comfort the girlfriend's daughter because apparently she lost a soccer game.
How about he stays and puts his kids to bed instead? Lord forbid that he starts acting as a parental role model now, right?
Before he left, he asked me if I've found someone. I happened to mention that a friend of mine showed interest and if I wanted, it could have gotten physical but I stopped before it did. He says he feels there is someone out there, that I'm moving on.
What does it matter if I am? I have that right, no? Why should he be able to see this girl in my face night after night but I can't even have a conversation with a guy without there being anything romantic involved?
Sigh.....why can't zombies be real and eat him?
I believe it's always easier for the person leaving to move on and in turn they want the other person to move on as well so they do not feel guilty for finding someone else. But you know the grass isn't greener on the other side, it's just different. I hope he doesn't abandoned his role as a father to his children..
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