Marrying out of high school was not the plan. I guess you can say the plan would have been college, medical school, romance thrown along the way and then marriage. Things just don't always go the way you plan them. Unplanned pregnancy and bam! Things change. It wasn't just about me or him anymore; it became about us.
Fast forward 10 years later...
We have 3 daughters and 1 son. Things haven't always been perfect, not by a long shot. There have been problems just as much happiness. But how can one over-power the other? Why is it so easier to remember the problems and the feelings involved in them than to remember all the good times and the happiness? Somewhere along the way, we got confused. What was once love, turned to comfort and I guess you can say we became compliant.
I think we just grew up.
That realization came the day when he returned home from work and decided that we should get divorced. Had the topic ever been mentioned? Yes. Was it taken serious? No. And perhaps that is where the problem lies. It should have been taken serious.
This was a month ago now. I want to say that it gets easier with time, and it does...but the underlying pain is still there.
This is my therapy.
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